Amnesia

 I feel it like a switch

Suddenly the brightest light flickers on

I was cool now my cool is gone Being triggered sucks for everyone

I call it a murder cycle You do something that makes me psycho And then you are a psycho

A goddamn infinity loop

Stoop so low and so stupid Getting stuck on this track with you Feel like I will crack with you

But why am I with you?

What is it to be with someone?

We aren’t even in love

And you tear my heart out anyways

What the fuck is jealousy? A whiny bitch Wish I could leave her here If she would shut the fuck up I don’t need her near But near and dear She controls my heart My mind doesn’t work It darts Off to another idea So mad Maddening Out of control A tailspin

I want a rail thin bump I think of drugs I want to escape Why do I want to be so awake

But I’m tired And tired of being tired

My fucking brain is fired

fried

i tried

I’ve cried more times

I thought I would die from pain

I get amnesia

I forget Everything you did and let Myself get calm

Open my mind it’s ripped like a bong I forgive and move on I Open up my heart and it’s still shredded Taco cheese

I don’t forget it

But I do

I get blinded by you

Caught off guard when you do

The things I love and hate too

Why can’t I learn

Why can’t I learn

Why can’t I learn

Goddamn trauma brain trigger finger insane