The Samurai Remembers

Not I”

A buzzing fly

In the orbit

Of sitting Samurai

“I”dentify the fly

“Not I…”

Opens his eyes

From meditational reprise

 

And then

Slash with his blade

Violence made

Unto “other”

Momentary silence,

And then

Another?

 

2 Flies

As Samurai

Again, closes eyes

“Not I”

Identifies

Opens eyes

With violence

2 flies die

 

Again

The human incarnation

Closes eyes

Quiet is sublime

And now seated

As buddha

Contemplation can…

Oh man

4 flies

He opens eyes

He slashes blade

4 deaths more made

Becomes afraid

“Not I”

 

Consciousness reminds

Warm attention kind

“I am not my mind”

In kind, 8 flies fly

In orbit of Samurai

“We are I.”

 

Their buzz observed

Vibration Heard

Consciousness not disturbed.

 

Suddenly,

A memory,

“All of we

Are god’s creations unfolding”

Tears not withhold

Heart soft, showing

A love so growing

A reminder of union

Yoking is one communion

All beings through time and space

Watching the race

And crawl

Of god’s creation is us all

 

A merging

Into one.

Samurai’s meditation done.

Opens eyes

To mourn the flies

“goodbye” as Samurai

Supplies soil

With carbon

Bodies of the flies

Down they lie

Their matter to supply

Another new unfolding

Attached to Detachment

Internal pressure
External forces
Anxious responses
Autopilot mind
Getting off the habit horse
Is hard when it’s running
Getting off the habit horse
Is hard

Deadline
Prestige
Frontline
Intrigued

I want to be the best of me
Is it ego or dharma calling?

Can’t sleep
Cyclic treat
Awake and anxiously so
Breathing
Sitting on cushion and no
No cigar
But close
Close

Closing eyes
One breath
Inhaling
I am alive
Exhaling
I am grateful
Fateful
Was I chosen?

Choosing to be open to possibilities so
Anxiety climbs and escalates
Skills of mindfulness trying to abate
Needing more practice
And so I write about it

But what will they say?
My book comes out today

Will they read it and grow?
Will it really blow?

Mind attaching to thoughts of judgement
Meant to make me distracted

My goal
To share
To show I care

Attached to outcomes
Knowing that I must
Keep on the cushion

Detachment dangles like a carrot
And I want a bite
Striving toward non striving

A strange predicament indeed

Inhaling
I am alive
Exhaling
I am grateful

Full
Mindful
Full mind
I don’t mind
Come along for the ride

You’re just in time 

Tiny Miracles (A poem to navigate grief)

For your grief

Through my period of darkness and grief
I came to know my beating heart
The depth of loss
Turned the light on love.
I see love shining through.

All the pain you feel
I’ll shine her love on you.

I love you
No matter who you are
For I have known pain and
Therefore I know you
Therefore I am you
We hurt and we love
Darkness and bleak dreary weight
Bones so heavy that arms can’t lift
Grief so draining
And yet
once you can move through the thick smog of loss
Just enough to see there is a point far enough across
Beyond where all you know is this pain
And what if???
And how I could it be different???
I’ll be there
Showering you with the rain of self compassion
So that you may hold yourself dear
And love shines through your heart again

I know your pain
Though it differs from mine
I hold you in your moment of loss
Golden waves of sparkling light
I send to you
Safety
Warmth
Love
Protection
Respite
And I pray that you find
The tender depth of your heart
On the other side of this
The waves may be huge
And you, a weary swimmer
Yet the tides will bring you to shore
And the soothing oceanic breathing
Of a body of water
The womb of earth and water
The baking sun sending rays of just-baked cookie warmth to your cheeks

One drop of sweat

These tiny miracles

And you’ll find yourself weeping
In gratitude
For these tiny gifts
Are momentous
Tremendous
Your heart so full
I see the light of love for you
Even though your back is to her
Shining
Facing the darkness
You will sink deeper
Don’t be afraid
Go
Go all the way into the haunted house of your broken heart
Ghoulish and scary
To face the fear inside
The pain
And when you come out
Through the archway doors
Dazzled in drops of sun setting sweetness
Birds singing your name
A gust of wind bringing tears to your eyes
You will feel that which I have felt
That your heart is capable of so much love
That you light up the entire sky
Orange hues of happiness
Your peace shared across the horizons

Immense

And we all take it in
Awestruck with the beauty
That your love light shines
After a broken heart
You will awaken again
More capable of love than ever before

We Are The Robots

 We are all in our space ships beaming up images of our dances in short bursts of low quality video

We are the future people dreamed of and more dystopian than anyone imagined

We are living through the technology of the Jetsons except we are the robots

We behave as the machines ask us to because of the ad spend $$

Not even realizing how obedient we are little machines buzzing with energy but needing to be recharged

Lara and Louie

 What is time?

Do you mind
If we define
A moment sublime?
It’s like a breath
With a twist of lime
Pungent to make you know
You’re alive

Melting clocks in rotation centering an hourglass,
Grasping time like grasping space the void is to vast,
Helping thoughts are manipulating the portals of the past ,only this moment exists and im so glad you asked

Ask me why I lie
On my back and stare at the sky
With tears in my eyes
Grasping why we are here
Hear me now
Revelation of how
Life takes a bow
Showing her beauty
Hourglass figure
Hourglass time
Sand dropping down
Clarity all around
The more time passes
The more love abounds

Flying through space we cling to sacred earth
Look for purpose on the surface so hard it becomes to hurt
Till we surrender to counting every star
And just accept the beauty for which they are
Shall we count the snowflakes or just accept that it is snowing?
Should we puzzle our minds with how or just thank the moon that’s glowing?
Surrendering to the unknown is wisdom in itself
Seek to natures relations when in need of help

Nature nurtures sutured structures
Broken fragments of conjunctures
Times we couldn’t and times we didn’t
Times we did and probably shouldn’t
When giving into the unknown
And follow paths as bright lights shone
Lighting up the fears and feelings
Inside hearts and minds a’reeling
No need to stop and chat the weather
Whether or not you are together
Feeling connected blend together
Unity not a plague
A treasure
No need to count the ways in which
Your beauty makes the world in bliss
But nonetheless enumerating them
One
Your love
Two
Your soul shine
Three
Your joy
Four
Your presence
Five
Your nature
Six
Your purpose
Seven
You are me
Eight
We are we
Nine
All are one
Ten
Universal love

Mmm universal love reminding me dualities secret is oneness
I see Buddha in your eyes these mirrors are abundant
Your nature has purpose and we are honored to remind you
Your joy within the presence of your soul finds you