Attached to Detachment

Internal pressure
External forces
Anxious responses
Autopilot mind
Getting off the habit horse
Is hard when it’s running
Getting off the habit horse
Is hard

Deadline
Prestige
Frontline
Intrigued

I want to be the best of me
Is it ego or dharma calling?

Can’t sleep
Cyclic treat
Awake and anxiously so
Breathing
Sitting on cushion and no
No cigar
But close
Close

Closing eyes
One breath
Inhaling
I am alive
Exhaling
I am grateful
Fateful
Was I chosen?

Choosing to be open to possibilities so
Anxiety climbs and escalates
Skills of mindfulness trying to abate
Needing more practice
And so I write about it

But what will they say?
My book comes out today

Will they read it and grow?
Will it really blow?

Mind attaching to thoughts of judgement
Meant to make me distracted

My goal
To share
To show I care

Attached to outcomes
Knowing that I must
Keep on the cushion

Detachment dangles like a carrot
And I want a bite
Striving toward non striving

A strange predicament indeed

Inhaling
I am alive
Exhaling
I am grateful

Full
Mindful
Full mind
I don’t mind
Come along for the ride

You’re just in time